Thursday, August 02, 2007 . 2:36 PM

when i needed someone soo much to be by me , where are you ?
soo what if i have sooo many friends ? haish , i dunno laaa.
haish , friends will just encourage me by words. but when i needed a listening ears nor a shoulder.
who can give me ? i just can spend my time working.
and only costumers can make me *SMILE*.

and today is the 3rd day i haven been attending school.
soon , i will drop out of school. really very soon . i just dun have the heart for studying anymore .
seriously i dont. i just want to work and work. by right today am not working . but i called up and asked if i could work. i just dun wan to stay at home . sleepless night. am very very tired, but i just cant get to sleep . mind spinning every night. haven been eating for days too. awww !!! having gastric pain alr and im not hungry. no appetite to eat nor mood . haishhh.
haven been drinking any water for days too .shittttttt !!!

i dun feel like shopping.
i dun feel like eating.
i dun feel like drinking.
i dun feel like sleeping.
i dun feel like studying.
i dun feel like going cgm.
i dun feel like going svc.
i dun feel like LOVING ANYONE.
i dun feel like meeting up with anyone.but only you*
i dun feel like talking.
i dun feel like DOING ANYTHING !
I JUST FEEL LIKE WORKING TILL I BREAK DOWN !
working allows me to have a FREE MIND ! ):

soo dun force me ! i dun have the heart anymore.
i really dun haveeeeee !!!
what happened to me ?

having slight fever and bad cough already. SHIT ! im going to be sick.
can i still carry on ? im breaking down sooonn ! real soon . DAMN IT !
sucks , that means i cant work !! nonono. i must be strong.

my gastric hurts soo much now ! ):

blogging is the only way for anger venting. =/

MY LIFE SUCKS BIG TIMES !!!!!!!! >:(