Monday, July 30, 2007 . 12:03 PM

JUST FUCK OFF FROM THIS PROBLEM , YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO SAY ALL THAT TO HER ! FUCKING SHIT ! YOU ADDED FIRE INTO THE PROBLEM. YOU RUINED EVERY SINGLE THINGS ! THINK BEFORE YOU HURT OTHERS , U DIDNT HURT HER ONLY , BUT ME , THE BASTARD OLD MAN IN MY FAMILY , MAY !!!! SHE HAS ENOUGH OF PROBLEMS ALRIGHT , JUST LEAVE HER ALONE !


JOEYTAN ! YOU FUCKING HELL GOING AROUND TELLING OTHERS THAT ! WHAT THE FUCK ALRIGHT , YOU GUYS MADE THIS WORST BUT NOT BETTER ! JUST FUCK OFF FROM THIS PROBLEM TOO ! ASSHOLE !

JUST DUN ASK ME WHO IM TALKING NOR WHAT HAPPENED , IM NOT GOING TO SAY !
JUST FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE

IM NOT GOING TO TRUST ANYONE ANYMORE , I TRIED SOO HARD TO TRUST PEOPLE , AND THIS IS WHAT I GOT IN THE END , SOO IM SORRY , NO LONGER I WILL TRUST ANYMORE ! JUST FUCK OFF , LEAVE ME ALONE !

CHO MEILING . NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENED , YOU JUST GOT TO BE STRONG AND FIGHT THE BATTLE AS WHAT YOU SAID TO ME , IF YOU FALL , JUST STAND UP AGAIN
AND BE STRONG , YOU GOT TO CLIMB UP BEFORE ITS TO LATE. THE MEILING I KNOW IS A STRONG GIRL. NOTHING GOING TO HIT YOU DOWN . DO YOUR PART , AND IM ALWAYS SUPPORTING YOU , SOO DO AUNTY MAY. SOO DO EVERYONE AROUND YOU.
JUST WANT TO SAY A BIG THANKYOU FOR BEING BY MY SIDE REASONING
EVERYTHING OUT TO ME .

THERE'S SOO MANY PROBLEMS I SERIOUSLY FACING RIGHT NOW , I JUST WAN TO RUN AWAY FROM REALITY , BUT I CANT , I NEED TO FIGHT THE BATTLE BECUS OF MY FAMILY , EVERYONE AROUND ME. IM SOO STRESS UP , I JUST GOING TO SORT OUT ALL THE PROBLEMS N MY THINKING.


BASTARD OLD MAN , NOT I DUN WANT TO ANSWER THE QUESTION YOU STRIKED ME , DO I TRUST YOU ANOT?? IM SORRY THAT I DUNNO HOW TO ANSWER IT , YES I CHANGED !

IM SERIOUSLY AM TIRED ALREADY, CAN I JUST LEAVE THIS FUCKING WORLD ? HAISH , I JUST CANT STAND IT ANYMORE LONGER. I CANT GIVE UP I KNOW ! IM GOING TO FIGHT THE BATTLE NO MATTER WHAT. FOR THE SAKE OF EVERYONE , I NEED TO .SIGH !

Sunday, July 29, 2007 . 8:06 PM

those pictures are me when im young . soo damn funny mann .
my day today is ruin. dun wan to mention about it anymore.
my trust for dad is no more already . seriously no more.
what's the point of asking me to confront you .
im fucking pissed with you alright. and i will never forgive you nor forget about what happened .
washed car with gwen and indunei during evening .
den had bbq at home , quiet bbq. SUCKS !
and yes , FUCK ! dad n may broke up !!! CCB !!!!!!
gwen cried , i got nothing more to say. haishh .
im just upset n all . what happened to my family recently ?
i just dunno. everyone went out of control .
im tired, seriously am tired of it already .
can i just say , i no longer have a father nor family anymore?

Saturday, July 28, 2007 . 1:28 PM

slept at 5AM the previous night n woke up at 8plus for school.
was late for class for 2hrs plus .
reached school at 10am and its break time alr.
soo ate before i went up .
ended class at 12noon.

cabbed home as i was very tired and its raining.
reached home , rest for awhile and prepared to go out .
meet idiot and head outside school and wait for jojo.

went plaza to eat her KFC , and i head to meet my friends for shopping.
went to cityhall. peninsula to buy jeans .
but i didnt get it . as it was soo uncomfortable.
its only $25 . like omg ! all my jeans is always over 50bucks.
went to marina square after that , to have KFC for dinner.
before that, lyn and mich bought tops from topshop and i got 1 top at topman .

went back to panjang to meet lena.
** its been a long long time every since i went out with this besti of mine.
and yes finally we met up and took pictures . HAHAHAS ! LENA PHUA ! i MISS you LAAAA !!!

head to farmart for prawning but end up be didnt . cus theres too many ppl .
soo head back to lot 1 .
cam-whoring awhile and den went back to panjang to slack .
went to blk 163 and den plaza to find DY.
waited for daddy till 2plus and he came and fetch me home .
slept at 3plus last night.

and im woke up at 1plus today. =/
hahaas, omg ! i dunno where to go later. movie or ????confuse !!!!

TPP : why u always kena caught by me outside de uh ? hahahas, always saw you , but dun get a chance to go out with you. been a long long long long time i haven been out with you alr babe !!!!! and i saw your EX bf , the malay one . hahahaas !

Thursday, July 26, 2007 . 11:59 PM

EDITED !


went sheng siong with may to get FROGS .
its damn DISGUSTING when THEY KILL IT !
bought 9 of it to cook frog porridge.
den went to plaza for tea.
missy donuts is super NOT NICE !
cannot compare with donut factory laaaa !
i got a JOB ! like finally ? hahahas. working on monday , friday , saturday and sunday.
finally got income already. hahas.
had cg, den went off half way for dinner.
8 course dinner. damn full mann .
2hrs dinner . their water like FREE de.
keep refilling for us . wahpiang .
head home after that .
&& JOEYTAN called me just now .
hahas. and she's coming home TMR !!! hahas.
but too bad im going OUT . soo can only see her on SAT ? hmmmmm ! IM DAMN LAZY FOR SCHOOL TODAY ! =/

i woke up before my alarm rang.
was super energetic BUT im lazy to prepare for school .
and my tummy is not feeling good . having cough .
guess i had too much of durians ytd already . grrrr ! =/

oh mann , its 8.40am only and im going to ROT at home !!!
guess i shall finish up all my delayed assignment before my lecturers starts nagging at me again.
this term , i seriously am lazy n moodless to study.
its the 3rd wk of school already and im still this like . what the heck am i doing uhhh???
sept holiday please come quicklyyyyy !!!!!!!!
update more later. =/

Wednesday, July 25, 2007 . 11:21 PM

edited -

a short update bout today.

went counselling for 30-45mins .
then head to yewtee to buy food to cook for daddy tonight with may.
bought 3 big durians . and when i reached home ; i ate 2 durians all by myself.
ah ma sick soo cant eat , gwen n yita dun eat durian.
me n may ate.
may ate the bitter one only gt 3 seeds inside n mine still 30over seeds cus mine is sweet.
i dun like to eat bitter durian . soo ya. JOEYTAN not at home soo too baddd ! I ATE YOUR SHARE!
went to may mum's place awhile, came home for dinner. and i ate alot of watermelons .
its like ! OMG ! im damn bloated. i vomitted everything out .

may : people drink alcohol vomit , you ate till vomit .
me: -.- damn full lor . this week everyday eat eat eat non-stop. later 8pm we go swimming laa.
may: i will think about it . abit lazy. go jogging laa.
me: dun lazy laaaaa !!!i wan to swim but no jogging pls.
may: see lor . nxt wk onwards; we cannot eat this way alr . must eat fresh veg.
me: okayy lor .

its like omg ! she keep feeding me food lorr. tsktsk .
guess , i gain weight alr laaa ! ASSSS !!!

den went to buy things to cook instead of SWIMMING nor JOGGING !
WT !!!! cooked fried fish noodles .
im bloated again .
after tat , went up to the room , may did manicure for me .
my nails are short again !!!!! awwww !
guess im turning in real soon . im tired alr , ate too much . tsktsktsk !!!! ytd went town with may to meet zhiwei(her fren)
for dinner at AO CHAN.
he is damn a funny guy that really can make may laughed and talk soo loudly.
this is the first time i saw it mann.
den went indo chine @ wisma to drink .
chatted n chatted alot , laughed till my lungs out too mann .
me & zhiwei is 10yrs diff only .
got same topics to talk bout.

soo ya , i head to artfriend to get something when may n zhiwei sits there to chat n drink .
chatted on the fone with ms prissy for like 40mins . i called her . soo its like ! good luck to my bill this month , but heck care laaa. hahahahas.
walked back ; continue chatting again till 10pm .
n he sent us to daddy's.

left at 1am cus we all are entertaining his costumers.
& daddy told me his opening a JAPANESE ICE-CREAM SHOP for me to do as a managing director next yr .
hahas. i went super high .
those ice-cream will be import from japan. soo talk to his japan costumer .
omg ! im having a hard time to catch his english .
left at 1am n head to cuppage road @ town for ramen .
best ramen in sg .
been eating there always laaa. hahahas.
hop in the car ; and i dozed off straight away.

soo i didnt intend to attend class today.
n now i realise ; morning lesson was CANCELLED n NOBODY INFORMED ME !
FUCK ALRIGHT ! LUCKILY i didnt wake up in the morning like an idiot !
not going 2pm lesson later , having counselling later on . bored !!!

Tuesday, July 24, 2007 . 8:31 AM

" GOOD " morning people !
the time now is 8.20am .
i just reached school 10mins ago.
omg ! i woke up relucantly.
im seriously damn tired.
couldnt sleep last night.
thinking about stuffs again .
tears just flow down when im on my bed.
sleeping with a wet pillow last night? omg !
vomitted twices early in the morning.
i just dont know what happened to me.
& i couldnt finish the bread yita made for me.
soo i threw it away.
and den vommited again .
drinking lots of water now. tsktsk !!!

anw ; i guess im going home half way.
school ending 5.30pm today .
im not feeling well . soo might go back after this lesson.
im soo soo soo tired.
clarisa declare herself SICK ! awwww !

seriously ; i feel like quitting school.
its like ; coming to school not doing anything is a waste of time mann .
why are all my classmates playing those love songs in class.
its makes me wanna ___ ! sigh.
sucks sucks ! guess im going out of class for time n lesson hasn't start.
more than half of the class haven reach class. how great ?
shouldnt be early today laaaa!

Monday, July 23, 2007 . 5:08 PM

i just don't know why are you appearing in my dreams every single night.
every pieces of my heart are missing you.
when you're gone. sigh -

woke up at 11am ; prepared for school.
went to school at 12.20pm .
reached at 1.20pm .
did nothing , but shaking my legs in class all the time .
this bring me nowhere. i gotta go something about it already .
talk alot to sheeNa today cause she's sitting beside me only.

me : haish ; my sister went OBS and she ps-ing me for 5 days sia .
sheeNa: obs ? = out of bounds .
me : laughed my lungs out.
sheeNa: hit me and laughed .
me : outward bounds la .

she's damn damn cute siah , kena laughed by me . its like OMG ! hahahas.

ended class at 3.30pm .
went to the canteen as everyone wants to eat.
soo accompany them , and i ate too. -.-
im soo damn bloated since last night.
head back home after that .
and i went to the toilet straight becus i wan everything to come out.
its damn uncomfortable when ur tummy is bloated .
omg ! its only 5.05 pm . im dead dead bored.
many assignments yet to be done ; cause i didn't go to school .
bored bored ; going school kills me mann .
how i wish i really can stop school & shake leg at home . awwww !

Sunday, July 22, 2007 . 8:47 PM

woke up at 2.40pm today .
and went out to pasir ris to see dogs . den head to the giant megastore to walk .
head to jalan kayu to eat best prata in sg . abit lame uhhh.
budden im filled with food today . soo shag and bloated. omg !!!!
reached home at 8.15pm .






















































i had a wonderful day with mich , kiat and sulwyn.
went town for shopping .
me and kiat bought a jacket from far east the same 1 . which im wearing it .
$39 . haahas. finally i got it .
walk around , den head to cityhall awhile and to bugis .
yixin came to find us awhile and head with her frens .
soo we took cab back to bpp at 11plus .
slack-ed at mac till 2plus .
drink again .
hahas, im always sober . but my face turns red easily.
saw yingjie , lindy and jiaming at bpp .
soo chatted abit . hahahas.
saw alvinn and co. at town and bugis . and TAN PEIPEI
saw christine yong at cck lrt stat when im going to meet them .
saw von and co. at bugis .
hmmm , saw soo many ppl . tsktsk .
anw , let the picture do the talking .
good night peeps. im turning in alr .its 3.10am !!!!